beautiful ending

today as i went on my run, i really needed God to put me in my place. daily i struggle with exerting my will for my life over his. he has made his will for me abundantly clear, yet i still proceed to complain to him, plead for things to go the other way and cry out to him to change his will to make it like mine. well, guess what? it's no surprise that that's not what a relationship with God is about. it's about conforming my will to be more like his.

so as i ran (or limped, of sorts- my ankle wasn't doing too well on this one), a song came on my ipod that i usually skip because i never liked it. but of course, it was exactly what i needed to hear. so again, i'm trying to listen.



so ignore the cheesy (and strange) music video, because it's the lyrics that matter. whose arms am i trying to end up in in the end? they're the arms of my Father.

"beautiful ending" barlowgirl
oh, tragedy
has taken so many,
love lost cause they all
forgot who You were.
and it scares me to think
that I would choose
my life over You.
oh, my selfish heart
divides me from You,
it tears us apart.

so tell me
what is our ending?
will it be beautiful,
so beautiful?

oh, why do i
let myself let go
of Hands that painted the stars
and hold tears that fall?
and the pride of my heart
makes me forget
it's not me but You
who makes the heart beat.
i'm lost without You,
and dying from me.

so tell me
what is our ending?
will it be beautiful
so beautiful?

will my life
find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful,
so beautiful.

at the end of it all
i wanna be in Your arms
at the end of it all
i wanna be in Your arms.